I love my husband so much. I know I get angry at him and I say things that I shouldn't but I love him more than I probably should...
In 6 months I'm sending the man I love to war. God help me if he doesn't come back because I'll die without him.
Merry Christmas you guys! I wish I were home with everyone. I'm making fried apple and cherry pies today. It's completely experimental. I saw it on a cooking show and decided I'd give it a try. It's not really something you can screw up. I can't wait to watch Connor open his presents. Jonathan and I got a little lazy so there aren't very many surprise presents this year. Except one. There's this big present under the tree for me and it's driving me crazy. I have absolutely no clue what it is. He needs to go to sleep so I can set up his new keyboard. welp i'm going to go see if he asleep yet. I love you guys.
Connor says Derry Christmas. (Yes with a D)
All this rain makes me feel like I'm about to be swept away. But you know it rains here. So much for walking to the bus stop or owning a bicycle. I want to go into Seattle next week. I want to take connor to the aquarium. As silly as this sounds a new seal pup was born and I REEEAAALLLYYY want to go see it. And I want to go shopping. I just hate driving those hills. It's like San fransisco all over again. But it's not so far away (about as far as it is to Dallas from my old apartment)
Jonathan has CQ duty tonight so I'm home alone. And he took the tv from my room. The jerk. The lights are still on in the house because I'm 23 and still afraid of the dark.
Man it rain so much here. I knew it rained here but my goodness. I do like Washington I do I do.
I've got my son in underwear. To bad it doesn't mean that he'll use the toilet. I'm sure it just means that I'll be cleaning up pee for a while. But he's so excited about them. I just hope in all of his excitement he dosen't pee on my couch.
come july I'll be back home. jonathan is going off to Iraq and I just don't want to stay here. I miss my mom and I miss my friends and I miss my job. As exciting as living by an active volcano is and wonderful random snow flurries...I'd rather be in Texas. They can't cook here. would it kill them to use spices? I'm trying to pop in sometime in January. I left a lot of loose strings. So Yeah I'm excited about coming home but I'm not to thrilled about the circumstances.
I have mountians that i can see when I step outside. (That is when there's no fog) Not just a mountian like I originally thought but a whole string of them. this is nuts!
It's snowing! It's not supposed to snow here but it is...has. Real snow. The kind that actually covers the ground. You can actually build a snowman in it. (Connor did at the sitter's last night. He was so very excited.) It's covered the pine trees and the ground. It looks so surreal to me. I can't get over it. I know it's just snow but my goodness IT's fucking SNOW!! It's nuts and for the first time since I've got here I love Washington.
Ok so I made it one piece. We were a little shaky in San Francisco but we made it with only one attempt on his life. I miss home so bad. I didn't think it would hurt like this. I don't know what I thought it would feel like but I never pictured in the worst of scenarios that it would feel this bad. I'm trapped. I have no car out here (Jon takes it to work) I have no job (no way of getting one with no car) I don't understand the bus schedule and there is NO SUN. I can see why people are so damn rude.
Thanksgiving was slow and painful. God please don't ever let me be that military wife that sits around in sweats all day (even when entertaining company)OH and to top it off she says "I was so pissed at my husband for inviting over people. I hate when he does this to me." So much for hospitality among the military. I hope that not all the wives are like this. I'm terrified of Christmas. If I wanted to feel unwelcome I'd go back to Texas and spend it at my Grams house. I don't think I belong here.